A LIFE I NEVER LIVED

I was supposed to lighten you up heavily

I thought my coming would bring you much happiness

But it didn’t

I remember the disgust

As your skin opened in resentment

When my coming was announced

I remember the bitterness

As your bones shivered

At the mention of my arrival

I remember all this

And I ask why?

Was it because you weren’t ready?

Was I product of misbegotten loins?

Would letting me live be a life-ruining decision?

Thus, the protector became my predator

The mother hen became the preying hawk

And the creature returns early to the Creator

And now I go to the Creator

To tell of a life that wasn’t lived

Account for an event that never was

End a story with no beginning

Mine was a life I should have lived

But had to leave

That should have been but never was

Because,

Mother murdered me

DHESERT CHEQUER