You have no idea what it’s like to be stared at and treated like an outcast
You don’t have any idea what I go through trying to impress you
You have no idea what I go through just to look like you
You think I don’t want to be skinny just like you?
You think I love to wake up and stand out from everyone else?
You think I don’t want to be ‘pretty’ like all of you?
I want to look like you. I do!
But I can’t
I’ve tried! Tried to be average
God knows
But I’m just not that way
Every time I wake up it feels like looking like you is the only determinant of my survival
Why won’t you just let me breathe?
What exactly is the problem with me being myself?
You think I don’t feel odd already?
I feel odd without even being told
But that’s not enough for you, is it?
It’s not just okay, is it?
From a very young age I learned that being me wasn’t really good enough
That looking like I do will always make the picture come out wrong
But then I realise
If the most important thing for survival is to look like everyone else,
I guess I won’t live long
So now you know what?
I’ve decided to either do this my way or not do it at all
Because I don’t like your way
Your way has too many rules
Rules on what to weigh and what not to weigh,
Rules on what to do and what not to do,
Rules on what to say and what not to say,
Rules on how to act and how not to act.
Rules on how to eat and laugh, drink and dance and look.
I don’t like your way
Your way brings me pain
I don’t like your way
Your way hurts me
I don’t like your way
Your way is too shallow
Shallow in a way that scars my existence.
I don’t like your way
Your way suffocates me.
I keep telling you ‘I can’t breathe! I can’t breathe!’ but you don’t seem to hear me
I wonder what will kill me first
Your hatred for my exterior
Or my stubborn and ambitious determination to conform
And keep my head above the water
From now on
I refuse to subject myself to your ridiculous standards!
Because I’m too good for that
MOYOSOREOLUWA FAGUNLEKA (Mo_the_creative)
08022979299
teemofags@gmail.com
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